today has been productive on a physical level. musically, emotionally…not so much. i’m rather distraught in the secret sisters world and we’re slowly climbing our way out of it, but the difference now vs. before is that i’ve turned to healthy habits to counteract my career-induced stress. when i get frustrated for any reason, i turn to my treadmill. what has happened to the lazy, heavy-set girl i used to know? she’s still not where she wants to be, but she has come pretty far.
i’ve been dedicated to the couch to 5k program, as i’ve been trying to get myself ready to run my first 5k in august. but over the past week i’ve struggled with the routine of the program. so i decided that tonight, i would do a nice, steady warmup walk until my legs felt loosened up, and then i would run an entire mile, nonstop, at whatever speed my body could handle. i’m ALWAYS guilty of running hard on tight leg muscles, and that affects my endurance, speed, and recovery. so tonight, i warmed up for 8 solid minutes, restarted the treadmill, and ran AN ENTIRE MILE WITHOUT STOPPING.
let’s absorb this.
there is a little monster from the past inside me saying, “well most normal people can run a mile nonstop and they do it much faster than you did.” my mile lasted for 12 minutes. and while this is definitely not all that i’m capable of, it is something i have never ever done before. how often do we actually get to do things that we’ve never been physically capable of doing in the past? and so i’m slapping the little past monster in the face, telling it that despite everything, i am proud of myself…and that my time is only going to get better.
that is all.