child, it’s only time. it will go by.
my boyfriend dubbed this tour the 2 week kamikaze europe tour. he hit the nail on the head.
the first half was great. smooth travel and wonderful shows in scotland, ireland, and england, topped off by our most satisfying performance to date: our headlining show in a massive old church, called union chapel, in london. that show was the absolute pinnacle of live shows…a full house, a stunning room with high ceilings and great acoustics, and just an all around wonderful way to finish out our first album cycle.
then it all went to pot. icky travel that was hindered by snowy conditions the likes of which europe never sees. a less than satisfactory opening gig for a european band whose fans don’t match ours, and complete exhaustion from too many shows, late nights and early days. amsterdam broke me down. a long day of delayed flights, no time for a nap, difficulty from the city being shut down because of the snow, a terrible gig, a lost guitar AND iphone, hunger, confusion, etc. so those were tough days.
but today is better. because of sleep. because of being able to talk to our parents and my sweet partner. because of an afternoon actually feeling like human beings: a delicious lunch with my favorite secret sister and tour manager, a visit to noon mass at the gorgeous cathedral in cologne, too much money spent on tourist-y items, a little bit of down time before our show tonight. plus there’s the little detail of knowing that in less than 3 days, we’re headed back home again.
i’ll never learn my lesson. i still get so emotional and stressed out when we tour europe, though this is hardly my first rodeo. i know what europe does to me, yet i allow it to repeat the process on every tour. it’s just hard and it gets the best of me sometimes. i should really start remembering that it’s only a matter of time until things get better. it’s only time. it will go by. and i’ll be ok.
