l.e.rogers

robbyattacks:

I want everyone to fall in love with the south the way I’m in love with the south.

pudus:

petition to stop all manufacturing of mustache necklaces, phone cases, and t-shirts

It kind of blows my mind how long it’s been since I posted something personal on here.  So much has happened, many emotions, many life changes, ups and downs and finally, me, happy and optimistic about the year and the opportunities ahead.

The main reason I quit writing was because my perfect relationship with a guy I really loved ended, once and for all.  I didn’t want to do anything, other than sit at home and cry and pray and beg him to try again.  Writing personal things on here was the very last thing I needed.  So I took some time, got myself on my own two feet again, made some necessary changes in my life and attitude, and I’m myself again.  Actually, a better version of myself.  My faith is on track again (though I always want MORE), my friends reminded me that I can count on them, my family became more important, and perhaps the biggest change is that my standards for myself were reshaped.  Though it was hard, and still stings occasionally, I am grateful that it happened, because I truly believe that my spirituality is better for it.  

On a musical note (ha!), Lydia and I are about 75% finished with our 2nd album.  We have one more bit of recording to do, and then it will be mixed, mastered, and released, and we will tour again.  I’m ready.  Not impatient, and not anxious to get back at it, but I’m ready to work.  I think it’ll be different.  I think it’ll be better.  And if I may say so, our album is SO GOOD.  I’m proud of us.

I will be 27 this year.  Occasionally I learn about friends or acquaintances, my age and younger, who are turning pages in their lives…marriages, first, second and third children, divorces, etc… and truthfully, there are moments I feel like I’m so incredibly off track.  People like to make jokes about me being single and a cat lady and all sorts of desirable abominable things.  And I laugh and play along.  

But my biggest goal for this year is to be ME, and to be fine with being me and just me.  To not be sorry that I’m single, to not be sorry when I just don’t want to do something that someone else asks me to do… To be able to say ‘no’ to things.  To be able to stand up for myself in a kind way.  To not beat myself up about being ‘behind’ the status quo.  Etc, etc.

I love where I am.  I love the early mornings at my home (my home)with my pets…the freedom to do as I please and focus on myself for the moment.  I love where our career is going, and I love the work we’ve done so far.  I love the people in my life, and I know that they are there because I need them to be there.  And those who aren’t in my life, left so that something better for me could happen.  

I promise I’ll try to update more here… I’ve so many stories to tell.  And they are good stories because they are MY stories, and God is writing them and he is the very best author.